LOVE

Dear Sisters,
I'm back!  I've been in a desert of anxiety for over a year.  Finally I feel myself start to relax and allow the Holy Spirit to work in me and through me.  My words have been dry as I wrestled with the outrageous demands of my job.

I felt completely hollowed out.  The anxiety didn't allow for words to be written, but only felt deeply; too deeply to ever be brought out to the surface.  When I am the most hurt, that is when I am the most quiet.  If I am raging and expressing my frustration, anger or hurt, that is a sign that while wounded, I am not helpless in the pain.  When I go silent however the hurt is so deep, so vast, so dark that there are no words to describe the pain that I'm drowning in.  That was the hurt I was in this past year.

I learned that through it all, I had friends who sustained me.
I learned that Jesus carried me in his arms and shielded me.
I learned that when one hurts on that level, it is hard to keep your feet moving and even harder to keep the words flowing.
I learned that I am still capable of love in that dark place because the author of love carried me tenderly in His arms.
I learned that my family centers me.
I learned that I am very strong, but not as strong as I thought I was.
I learned that even though my words were silent, my soul was soaking up the experience to use for the good of others.

Thank you dear sisters for praying for me and being there for me throughout my struggle.  No doubt God has given us to each other as a gift for these times in our lives.

God lives!
Let us rejoice and be glad!

Your sister in Christ,
Prayer Warrior